1 September 2010

Well I haven't updated my blog for a while......isn't it amazing how life just takes over sometimes? My days are consumed between my fulltime job and Mikah and Mateo. Believe me being a single Mom is certainly a challenge but it has been one that I have openly embraced and these have been the happiest years of my life.

A friend of mine bought me a little garden sign that says, "It's amazing to finally discover how un-lonely being alone can be." I think that there are many people that are in marriages or relationships that are very lonely and I had come to terms with being alone many years ago. Yet there is truly a gap with not having anyone in your life to share things with and I never really realised it.

But this was something that was completely out of my hands in anyway. My life is so consumed, where would I get to meet anyone anyway. So I just accepted every day as it transpired.

What a blessing this state of peace has been for me. There might be something or someone wonderful just around the corner just for me. Just believe!



Today is my birthday!!!

Today 15 February 2010, I am celebrating 27 years with 10 years of experience.

Didn't have the best start to the day I must admit. It started off with my car breaking down in peak hour JHB traffic with the boys enjoying their breakfast of muffins and yoghurt on the back seat. Needless to say, I managed to drop the boys off at school AND get my car to the dealership for a check up without spontaneously combusting anything.

While enjoying my complimentary cup of coffee the technician advised me that 'she' would need to spend the night...at least.

Now the challenge is organising transport for both the boys and I for the next day or two. The only alternative mode of transport is the 2 micro boards (fancy for a scooter) and a 'snake' skate board. Can you just picture the boys and I in the morning. Mommy with full make up, heels and the hand bag on the shoulder on the skateboard, and the boys, armed with school bags and lunches on their backs skating through traffic en route to school and work.

It is amazing how dependant we are on certain things and the realisation only really sets in when it gets taken away from us.

Well, try and wipe the smile off my face. It is my birthday after all. And I will get home in time to stick a candle in to the left over muffin so that the boys can sing "Happy Birthday!"

Three cheers to getting yet another year older!!! And I promise to treat my car better in the future!



23rd August 2007

Over the last few months I was faced with various requests for 'recent' publicity photographs and it dawned on me one day that the only photos that I had were 12 years old, as they were taken during my year of reign - can you believe that it was that long ago?

All the shoots that I've done over the last few years were with my children so the need arose for me to do a shoot, to get some up to date photos.

I flew to Cape Town for the opportunity to work with a well known photographer, Anthony Friend, www.clearmedia.co.za as he came very highly recommended through the industry. Remember that I am now 34 years old, have 2 children under the belt and my stomach is definitely not as flat as what is was 12 years ago.

Well my nerves were shot. What will the pictures look like? Will I even remember how to move comfortably in front of the camera? .......

Anyway, the make up artist started waving her magic brushes, we had several wardrobe changes and before I knew it I had Anthony staring at me through the lens of his camera. It was quite a surreal experience. Once I stopped worrying about pulling my stomach in and trying to hide the wrinkles - I had so much fun. Anthony has a wonderful way of putting you at ease and the final pictures were really something special.

I hope you agree that beauty stems from how we feel about ourselves.

Acceptance in who we are and what we mean to those around us is something that we need to nurture and cherish on a daily basis.

3 cheers to all you beautiful people out there!!!

8th June 2007

Being the first official blog entry that I have ever made I was stumped as to what to write about.

But while stuck in Joburg traffic on the way home one night I had a "ah ha" moment in the car.

There was an old familiar song playing on the radio, while singing along with the words it was like an Angel was talking directly to me. The words struck a chord within me, that I was not really willing or ready to hear. I have been through the most difficult and trying past 12 months of my life. These hardships have defined who I am as a woman, I have been forced to look at myself and reflect on where I am in life and where I am going. I have lived the last few years very afraid of failure and criticism and this has seriously hindered my chances for growth and happiness. I was totally unaware of the imaginary block that has been cast almost like a shadow over my life. After listening to this specific verse of the song I realised that I need to make changes if I ever want to experience happiness and love again.

I will now believe with all my heart that I am special and unique. I will fail at times but that doesn't make me a lesser person. I am an incredible mom to my two darling children. I have so much to offer people and I will live each day to the full, free of boundaries.